This is MY life long struggle and MY greatest FEAR!

The issue of being Abandoned.

From the age of 6 I often took my baby brothers from house to house and looked over them because both my parents worked hard.

By age 8 I was quite often left as the sole carer for my younger brothers because both my parents worked hard.

I walked them to school, saw them safe into their classes, walked them home again. With a fight or two in between as they were being bullied by the bigger boys.

I was brought up to TAKE CARE OF PEOPLE NO MATTER WHAT!

I have long forgiven my parents. They did the very best that they could. But they LEFT the child ME with an adults responsibility that was too big.

I still have this deep need to protect and care.

And the DEEPEST FEAR of being left ALONE to do it.

This will resonate with some of you ?